DISSAPOINTMENT!!!!!!

I've change !! I am small gas !! Dont u think getting one fren is better than getting one enemy?
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha .... i never thought this was words coming from U . I've change . yes i do..i gained weight i am fat!! what else? attitude? yes.. i am so lost !! character? yes.. i lost my spirit. so what am i now?
You failed ur exam, i with a good intention, tot to console u.. to listen if u wanna talk bout ur problems.. to share some thoughts so u will feel better.. and all i get in return was the 3 statement. Yes!! I am so Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! I am the idiot making the initiative to greet, to get fucked up, to get all this in return. phew.
I am even MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE stupid of even thinking ways to get YOU back together. I am so stupid of making plannings .. think think think.. forget it!!! Is a FAILURE!! I am so stupid to motivate someone when i MYSELF need someone to motivate. I am so stupid to give encouragement to people when i MYSELF hunger for encouragement when people are trying so hard to make me fall. I am so stupid to offer to be listener where i am facing all my problems myself when there is not much people to even sit and listen to me. I more stupid to seek solutions for others when i havent solved mine. I have been struggling when there is no one untie my pressures. I am so STUPID!! I am such an IDIOT. !! I am such a FOOL... U thought u create dissapointment to lots of people.. What about me? I create even MORE !! MORE !! I am so stupid making myself SLEEPLESS!!What should i do?

Oh.. U decided to start up, here it goes. U wanna stop, PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE. I DONT NEED ANYBODY. YOU Ask me: dont you know what type of person i am? Maybe you really dont. Yes i really dont know coz u never told me before. Let me ask you back the same Question DO YOU KNOW WHAT TYPE OF PERSON I AM?. My answer is for 2007 ..I AM JUST A STUPID FOOL ! I am so sorry being such a fool for so long, making your life so miserable i guess. I am so sorry for being so "keh poh" I should MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.. Yes.. I am sorry i make u sad. But i am much more dissapointed and sad when u think i wanna make u enemy which i even put ur problems as priority to get it solved, to make u feel better. Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha. I am so STUPID!!! I cant even sleep when i got no one to talk. Here i am.. Talking with a square box called Blogger. Now i know where i stand ! Now i know. I am still in FANTASY. I am still dreaming. I am so STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
People see me strong outside which i am weak inside! I dunno what to do now!! I am so tired. I forget myself. The unexpected thing might be one day seeing me appearing in the newspaper I AM DEAD would solved everything!! ha ha ha ha .. I cant stand and I am so blind.